The Fifth Post. A new beginning ...?

Hello. I'm back. This is my fifth post.

It has been going to be close to a month since my last long post.

No... it is not because I am too upset about her passing that I could not write another blog. Althought I missed her so much. She was a great grandmother and I felt sorry I could not spent more time by her side when she was still alive. Regret.

Regrets. Do all humans face regrets some times in their lifetime?

By my own experience, I believe so.

We are all creatures of emotional burdens that we will tend to live with regrets in our life.

We could never truly appreciate what we have this moment, at the present in our life, and we will live to regret it when it is gone.

Why? Why do we wait till it's too late then we realise how much it meant to us?

It is because we think that we still have enough time? We have other better alternatives if this option runs out?

No answers.

Each and every one of us has a different value system of how much we weigh each things we hold precious to us.

One man's treasure is another man's shit.

I don't want to be anyone's shit.

But I don't seems to be anyone's treasure either.

But perhaps I can be my own shit and my own treasure.

Perhaps I should treat myself well and reprimand myself when I get out of line.

This way I am loved and hated by someone - Meself.

A new beginning.

Will it be just like the other many new beginning I set up for myself over the past many months and always ending back to square one.

Should I go on to believe that there is a new beginning for me?

I think I should.

Because I want it to be.